| God certainly has been good to me. For example, I got back from Texas and I went to bed, when I woke up I was certain that I had forgotten to bring my guitar in the apartment and I had left it just outside the door when I unlocked it. I found it in my car! It has been an easy couple of nights at work (which is nice since I am still adjusting back to being on night shift) and I have managed to get a couple of quick naps.
God's mercies endure. Last night I went to church (since Wednesday night meeting happens at the right time and on the right road on the way to work) and I ran into a guy I hadn't seen in forever. He and I sat down and talked about some of what God is doing in our lives. It was a real encouragement.
God is faithful. I know that He will provide the means for me to live here or find a new place. My lease is up next month in this apartment and I am just waiting for God to provide. He will, I just hope it happens sooner than later. I have found that He likes being an "11th hour" provider.
I was disappointed by my time in Texas because I did not get the chance to try and further any reconciliation, but I was overjoyed because I met an awesome man of God with an amazing story at a Messianic Jewish Sader.
I realize that I talk too much about her, but I really do care for and love her deeply, and that hasn't changed. What has changed is me. I hope and pray that her new life is amazing and that God will bless her choice. I know that the man she has chosen is good for her in ways that I could never be and for that I am thankful. It doesn't remove the ache from my chest, but I am thankful that she found someone better than I - I always knew she deserved better. I don't mean to sound so juvenile by speaking so frequently about her, but she was one of the best things that ever happened to me and I am healing - slowely - and I am becoming more and more glad for the way things happened between us. I have too much time to think about this sort of thing of course, but I am. The man I am now is not the man I was then. I am older, sadder, wiser, and moving in a different life direction than I was then. Maybe it took the loss of her to get me moving where God wanted me to be going in the first place. I don't know, but He does. Glory be to God!
Anyways, I need to grab some supper and get some sleep.
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He IS Faithful! I'm ashamed of how unfaithful I am, and yet He remains faithful. I love the Newsboys song "In the Hands of God."